in the midst of my solitude

月曜日, 5月 01, 2006

hmmm...

i got home from Batangas last night, or rather, early this morning.
i enjoyed myself, and i met some new people too... i met MaryAnne, her brother, Jerome and Anton. It was fun!
haha, now i have a friend. yey. she lives in Eastwood City, and we may get together more often. i told her to drop by SM Mega on Satrudays, i may be there more often now. i told her about TIIS and SMALL, and she kept laughing when she found out what they mean. i mean, it is fitting, afterall: Tang Ina I'm Single! and Samahan ng mga Malamig Ang Love Life.
there's are a few EBs this Saturday, and i hope to go there already. there are the WTFCosplayers EB, Weekly PC Mini-EB and then GC EB. I won't join GC though... ^^;; It's gonna be fun, i'm sure. I hope to meet more people this saturday. Sinackular, Oreo, Kuya Luffy, Throngskill, Lexy, Nilopie and many others will be there for the weekly Mini-EB. ^^;; i like meeting new people again.
all because of cosplay. i think my parents really want me to move on from it, but they don't understand how important it is for me, and how much it's improved my life. i know it's senti and people will say it's BS, but it's not. i now have a social life since i meet people in cons and EBs, and now i have activities to help keep me concentrated and where i can pour all my energy into. if i give it up, i'll backslide. my breakdowns and personality-shifts have lessened, and i am much more emotionally stable because of it. before i had nothing to concentrate on, now i do. it's strange that the smallest things can change a person. i mean, im more patient now and much more stable. not to mention im much more confident because of it.
i know they're uncomfortable with me meeting so many people who they don't know. i know that it's kinda dangerous, but i know all the safety rules of the EB. hell i'm not meeting them in anyone's house unless i have a chaperone... always at the mall, and i will always be careful of whom i meet. it's just that i like meeting these people, and i feel very comfortable with them. for once, i feel like im with people i can relate to, who i can be myself around. im not pressured to be anyone im not. for once... i won't be judged or looked at strangely. im just me, gothloli06 or Jo. It's that simple. i really like it that way... and it's a nice feeling because we're still a small community, so it feels like a family... ^^;; at least, among the people i've met anyway. i don't want this to be taken away from me... it's not just the cosplay, it's the people i meet... the costumes and catwalks are a plus, but for me, it's really the people that i meet who are important to me. i hope they understand that.
myk and i were talking a while ago about some pretty deep stuff. im glad we can talk like that. ^^;; i haven't talken to people like that in a long while.
hmhmhm...
oreo is cute but with his wig on. hope he grows his hair long. cute nila ni Hugz!
baka mag-graduate na si Sinackular ng TIIS at SMALL! haha!!
hm, someone asked someone out again... and now i will be chaperoning. oh joy. im nervous.
back to school tomorrow...
splash island on May5! i so want to join!! but i can't!! this sucks so bad... T_T
saturday EB! saya!!
i wonder how sina Kuya Arjay are doing after the Ongaku... baka Hangover mode sila! haha!!
see ya later guys,

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 月曜日, 5月 01, 2006

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