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木曜日, 8月 31, 2006

hm..
im home in the Philippines already! im just suffering from really bad jetlag. i hate it. but oh well, right?
im glad im home. i was supposed to meet K today, but dad says i cant go because of transportation problems. *cries*
i really really really want to see him.
and i want to see Pat and Myk and Chris and JC real bad too.
grrr...
oh we're having a little lolita party. im helping organize ^_^
oh dear im going to fade in a bit.
see ya~

kanae

Kanae wrote alone 木曜日, 8月 31, 2006

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火曜日, 8月 29, 2006

okay im headed home to Manila tonight. i cant wait to be back in the motherland <3
yeah, severely homesick...
...and sick of packing. LOL
K wants to meet up thursday... i really hope i can go... i want to see him too.
and pat
and chris
and jc
and myk...
i still have myk's drumsticks.
and EB plus JRock outing Saturday. wahoo~
===
okay Queen of Swords from PinoyCosplay has sent me something very interesting about the owner of PC. its all in Tagalog, so i have to admit, im having a slight difficulty in reading it (im used to reading in English; i rarely read Filipino by choice. way to difficult LOL), but ill read through and post it here so that people will see what kind of an asshole Mike Abundo truly is. I have no intentions of meeting him in person, lest i truly punch him in the face.
absolute betrayal of public trust. >_<
anyway ill finish it up, then translate to English so the whole world will understand. wahahahahaaa.
thats why i said,
go to
http://www.wtfcosplayers.tk or http://www.cosplaykada.ph.tc or http://www.toyomancomet.proboards77.com
so much better.
i know the people who run them. LOL
see ya guys.

kanae

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 8月 29, 2006

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日曜日, 8月 27, 2006

okay last night was funny.
we had a party here, hosted by Gerald and Lisa, and most of those that attended were Filipinos. then some white people came, but they were later shooed off by Lisa's very drunked brother, Philip. it was soo funny, watching Gerald, Philip and this guy, Jacob, soo drunk.
Jacob and Philip were fighting-makingup then fighting again over and over and over.
"i know taekwondo!"
LOL
haha. there were two Vietnamese girls though, Tran and Yvonne. Tran is Jacob's girl, and she's really nice. pero... medyo airhead ba. -_-*
Jacob looks like Miguel Chavez of Chicosci.
Miguel Chavez is hot.
therefore,
Jacob is hot.
LOL im joking.
but really he's cute. hm. rakista siya.
but naaah. ill never see him again anyway. besides, no interest anymore. my interest is somewhere else (at home) lol.
so yeah.
im done with last minute shopping, now i have to do my packing. see ya guys.
flying to LA later, then back to the Philippines on Monday.
school starts on the 4th of September.
wish me luck.

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 日曜日, 8月 27, 2006

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土曜日, 8月 26, 2006

the scandal is over and it has to come to a somewhat satisfying ending.
i have changed the link in one to the new forum, CosplayKada. it's better. wohoo~
for all those reading, if you're a cosplayer, please do visit CosplayKada, WTF forums, Filcosplay.tk and Around the World Forums. tis a lot of fun. and dont bother with PinoyCosplay, one of the admins there is stupid and he might exploit you *ahemmikeabundoahem*
everyone is welcome to the forums. XD

anyway.
im still here in Texas, and im done with my last minute shopping at Hot Topic. im thinking of franchising it, and my dad said he can provide the capital for it. hey, not a bad idea. lol
yeah, i like the store. even if they call it a sell-out, hey the stuff's nice.
keep buying stuff from there XD

i have agreed to be TimeJump Sakura for the Naruto group at WTF. yeah! ive bought some stuff needed already. cant wait for it, though im not a big fan of Sakura myself. unfortunately i believe she and i have SOME similarities (inner sakura XD). kung di lang nagrequest ang isa... >_> oh well. lol

ive received the nomination forms for the GYLC. i can nominate up to 10. *thinks*
Diego, Patrisha.
me. LOL.

so yeah, thats all thats been happening.
see ya guys

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 土曜日, 8月 26, 2006

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木曜日, 8月 24, 2006

well.
i think im growing up. well, obviously, i am, but emotionally, im maturing again.
im getting more uncomfortable with people prying into my life or invading my personal space. i get exasperated more often too, but that's a different story.
im starting to draw lines between myself and other people, save those who i trust and am close to. especially boys. even my dad.
i dont know why. oh well...
i guess its also because in my mind, simple guestures now have different meanings. its strange, but that's how it is with me now.
^_^

hm. NC brought attention to another controversy started by Mike Abundo.
Abundo naman, wag kang ganyan. respect lang naman ang hinihingi, ayaw mo pa ibigay? si Lexy at Alodia pa naman, not to mention Polence, Wantan at Marikit.

it all boils down to repsect.
want to give it or not?

usually di ako nagsasalita sa mga ganito pero pag may dinamay ka na kaibigan ko o taong nirerespekto ko rin, talagang magsasalita na ako. amp ka dude.
go Jeff and Lexy~

RESPECT
to show regard or consideration for:
to respect someone's rights.
to refrain from intruding upon or interfering with:
to respect a person's privacy.

SELF-CENTERED
1.concerned solely or chiefly with one's own interests, selfish
2. centered in oneself or itself.
3. MIKE ABUNDO

tama ka kuya jeff

to all friends,
be careful about aholes like mike. ^_^

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 木曜日, 8月 24, 2006

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水曜日, 8月 23, 2006

yesterday was cool.
went to the Embarcadero region of San Francisco with my dad... it was nice spending time together with him, just father-daughter. ^_^
thought i saw chris there too. LOL
i keep thinking of Thomas Ding LOL. he really looks like K... Singaporean version haha. cool dude, though i never got to formally meet him (though we danced at the cruise haha)
i have to talk to the squirel~ >_<
i miss the GYLC...
i miss the Philippines
i am homesick T_T
anyway... yeah
see ya guys

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 水曜日, 8月 23, 2006

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火曜日, 8月 22, 2006

ive been on a quiz-mania.
read on...
answer on...

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01. What time is it now?` 10:05am
02. What are you doing?` this
03. Thinking of Anyone?` sort of
04. Are you Happy/Blur/Sad?` all three
05. Why?` life
06. What is the last thing you ate?` pizza and noodles
07. Last thing that you've heard that made you cry?` dont remember
10. Whats the last movie that made you cry?` forgot
12. Who do you wish to be by your side?` my fallen angel
13. Regretted anything in this month?` yeah~
14. Did you fall in love/out of love in this month?` yes
15. Who was the last person you talked to?` shirley parakh
16. Who was the last person you hugged?` my dad
17. Who was the last person you sms?` my uncle
18. What did you dream of today?` something hella weird XD
19. Who can make you laugh?` lots of people
20. Who always takes care of you?` myself, family, friends
21. Anyone you know is in pain?` apparently
24. What happen?` life got to them
25. What do you wanna do before you die?` say what i need to say
26. What song is stuck in your head?` nothing XD
27. What song are you listening now?` no music
28. Worried about anyone?` no.
29. What age do you wanna get married?` 24+
30. How many children do you want?` 1-2
31.Where do you wanna go for Honeymoon?` somewhere secluded and romantic and FUN
32. Any plans in this 2 month?` yup... school T_T
33. Describe a perfect wedding?` gothic fairytale XD
34. Describe a perfect Date?` fun and romantic
35. Where would you like to go for Holiday?` JAPAN
36. Do you play instrument?` used to...
38. Do you have a band?` sort of
39. What song do you want to listen to?` JRock
40. Wish you could die?` yeah
41. Do you give up easily?` sometimes
42. Do you know anyone that acts like a kid?` yeah
44. Do you know anyone that is rude?` YES
45. What's the sweetest thing anyone ever done?` tell me that they would always be there for me... and fulfilled it
47. Any sweet unforgetful memories with your Ex?` dont have an ex
48. Honestly.. Which Ex did you love the most?` dont have one
49. Who do you want to be hugged by?` my friends
50. Single or Taken?` single-- TIIS!
==

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 8月 22, 2006

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how filipino are you?

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Filipino Survey!Answer the following questions :
Are both your parents Filipino?- yes
Do you own a rice cooker?-thank goodness yes
You were raised that every Filipino friend of your mom and/or dad is your aunt and/or uncle?- yeah LOL
you say "hoy" to get somones attention?- heck yeah
you say"air-con" instead of air conditioner or a/c- yes lol
at least one of your relatives is or was a nurse- dunno o.O
To respect your elders you put their hand(the backof it) to your forehead(you bless them).- yeah
when you come from or go to the Philippines, atleast one of your boxes is a Balikbayan box?- *sigh* yes
when something hurts you say"aray"?- sometimes
your parents call you by special name they callyou.- yeah, JO
When you go to parties you or your parents bringhome food.- *sigh* yes
You eat Rice at least once a day.-almost every meal
You or your parents call Philippines home.- heck yeah! XD (im homesick T_T)
you live near at least one Filipino you know and/or is your family- yeah
There is or used to be a picture of "The Last Supper" in your house.- no
You have friends of all races- yup~
You eat with your hands and use a special technique- yes...KAMAYAN!
You have a uncle named "Boy"- yeah
Do you have a aunt named baby?- yah
When guests come to your house, your parents always offer them food?- yes and drinks too
Can you speak tagalog?- malamang!
Do you say tagalog words to other people because they dont know what the F*** your saying?- heck yeah! (remembers Doray at the GYLC LOL)
Do you use shopping bags as garbage bags too?- yah!
do you have a piano that hardly gets played?- yah
Are you always late for parties and call it "filipino time?"- minsan
do you use the dish washer as a dish rack?- ewan
Is your last name spanish?- Palma?
Do you know what Bulot is?- yah
You use your fingers to measure the water when cooking rice.- no
Do you or anyone in your family pronounce words like foot "poot"?- no
Do u have a lot of Filipino friends?- yeah
Do u know what a barong is?- yes
Do you have a bunch of slippers for when you have guests?- no
Do u like to line dance?- some kind of a sort of
Do you have a family member that has a nicknamethat repeats itself?- yeah...
You own a karaoke system.- we own a magic sing...
You hang a rosary on your car's rear view mirror.- no
You turn around when someone says "Psst!"- yah
Were most of the questions asked were answeredwith "yes"?- no... yah eh... joke XD yes
===

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 8月 22, 2006

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whAt iF yOuR cRuSh aSk yOu... sitwasyon: yung taong nagtatanong sayo aysupercrush mo.. anong sasabihin mo?

1. "is this seat taken?" no
2. "gs2 m b sumabay? sure
3. "may problema ako..." aww what's wrong?
4."lam mo ako na ata pinaka malungkot na tao sa mundo.." why??
5. "hey, i wz just curious why you were staring at me a while ago.." and what makes you think that?
6."may boyfriend/girlfriend k n b?" nope!
7. "grabe ang sweet mo talaga! sana ikaw nalang minahal ko.." thank you (OUCH)
8. "pwede m b ko tulungan kung pano ako mapapansin ni.. " go up to her and say hi (sakit ah.)
9."grabe naiinlove na ata ako kay..." [hindi ikaw] okay~ (oh.)
1o "karapat dapat ba sya para sakin?" [mabait yung girl/guy and mahal ng crush mo] dunno (hinde)

sakit nito ah lol

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 8月 22, 2006

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a random quiz

1. What do you think about posers/fakers?--> i pity them *sigh*
2. Do you have them?--> what~!? oh yeah >_>
3. if yes, how do you feel?--> pissed because in whatever she does, my name will always be involved >_>
4. how many accounts do you have?--> 1 friendster, 1 PC, 1FC, 1 GC, 1WTF, 1YM, 1MSN, 1Photobucket, 1TDP, 1AtW
5.How often are you on the computer?:--> often~
6. Do you have your own computer?:--> yes
7. Do you have friends?:--> yeah
8. How many?:--> a lot...
9.What makes you sad?:--> problems...
10. do your tears leave stains:--> sometimes
11. ever lost control:--> yup >_<
12. feel as everyone is talking behind your back:--> yes... sometimes
13. loved sumone who hated you:--> no... other way around
14.Would you prefer to have a shorter life with no chance of healht issues?:--> longer life
15. What is your sexual orientation?:--> straight
16. close your eyes & tell me what color you see.:--> black and yellow o.O
17. do you love stuff, what do you love:--> a lot
18. Do you have any piercings?:--> yup
19. Any tattoos?:--> nah
20. if so where, if not why?:--> coz... i dunno... magsasawa rin ako eh
21. What do you think of tattoos?:--> astig... for a while
22. What do you think of piercings?:--> okay
23.What do you think of Paris and Nicole?:--> they're so stupid its funny
24. Are you preppy?:--> NO
25. Punk?:--> err... hm... maybe
26. Cute?:--> no
27. sexy?:--> so they say
28. Stylish?:--> nah
29.Loner?:--> by habit, yes
30. Stoner?:--> hell no
31. Skater?:--> before
32. rich?:--> no
33. surfer?:--> nope

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 8月 22, 2006

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nakakatuwa to.. lagi ko nlang sinasagutan to.. Message: >>>>Can you name 13 of ur friends thatu can think of right off the top of your head. Don'tread the questions underneath until you write thenames of all 13 people. This is a lot funnier if youactually randomly list the names first. NoCheating!!!
1. pat2. myk3. khal4. chris5. jc6. hugz7. eula8. celine9. shirley10. abigail11. sims12. inkie13. andie
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> How did you meet 10?- in school... we were classmates
> What would you do if you had never met 2?- i dont know lol
> What would you do if 6 and 10 dated?- OMG~
> Have you ever seen 4 cry?- no
> Do you think 10 is cute?- errr... in a friend's way... sure
> How did you get to know 8?- school also
> Would you ever go on a date with number 12?- NO... no offense, inkz
> What's 7's Favorite color?- blue~
> What would you do if 6 confessed they lovedyou?- uhhh mommeeeeee
> Fact about 9:- mi loco amiga
> Who is 4 going out with?- tams?
> who is number 5 to you?- friend
> Would you ever live with 13?-no
> Is 1 single?- yes~
> Where does 7 live?- sucat
> What do you think about 3?- he's cool
> What's the best thing about number 8?- i talk to her about anything
> What do you like about number 11?- my best friend since before
> Favorite Memory with 2?- when i watch him play guitarfreaks or drummania XD

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 8月 22, 2006

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crush/love/relationship survey

1. single or taken? - single
2.Do you have a crush on anyone? - yup
3. Does he know? - yup
4. Do you flirt a lot? - dunno
5. Who was your best relationship with? - TIIS... SSB... NBSB member ako ^_^
6. Do cheaters deserve a 2nd chance? - hm. dunno.
7. Serious or Fun-loving? - both
8. Humor or Romance? - both
9. Dark or light hair? - dark hair
10.Shorter or taller than you? - slightly taller
11. Do you kiss strangers? - no
12. Do you hug strangers? - no
13.How long was your longest relationship? - as i said... TIIS, SSB, NBSB member here
14. Do you believe in kissing when you are not together yet? - if i said no, i would be a hypocrite. it depends on the person.
15. Do you think about the opposite sex a lot? - sometimes, yeah.
16. Have you ever slept at a friend of the opposite sex's house? - no... di ako pinapayagan
17. Do you tell your friends they are hot? - if need be
18. Would you rather have a sweet, clever guy/girl or a wild one? - sweet clever guy...
19. Have you ever liked someone a lot (and they knew it) who didn't like you back? - oh yeah... T_T
20. Do you feel comfortable with joking with your friends who are the opposite sex? - yeah... halos lahat ng best friends ko lalaki eh.
21.Chocolates or flowers? - both lol
22. Have you ever been in the friends-with-benefits situation? - hm. i don't know.
23. Teddy Bear or Card? - teddy bear :x
24. Would it be sweet or annoying if someone of the opposite sex called just to say hi? - depends who's calling
25. Ever felt like your Girlfriend/boyfriend didn't like you? - as i said... never had a bf.
26. Ever been cheated on? - never had a bf...
27. Ever done the cheating? - look up.
28. Ever cried over a break up? - never had a bf...
29. Ever kissed or hugged your girlfriend/boyfriend in front of a teacher and got in trouble? - nope
30. Do you believe in miracles? - yes
31. Is it easy for you to get over people who were special to you? - no
32. Have you ever made a birthday wish or blew on a dandelion on a relationship? - huh?
33. Have you ever had a broken heart? - yeah.

how very sad... LOL

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 8月 22, 2006

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月曜日, 8月 21, 2006

100 questions. answers.
001: full Name: Marie Josyn Brillantes Palma
002.Nickname: Jo, Joe, MJ, gothloli
003. inlove or not: yes XD
004. Zodiac Sign: aries
005. Male or Female: female
006.Age: 16
007. Birthday: March 31, 1990
008. How many buddies on your list: err specify please...
009. Screenname: gothloli06 or goth_chid06
010. Hair Color: black-brown
012. Height: 5'1" and a half
014. Eye Color: black-brown
015. Are you health freak: err NO
016. Weight: 95 or something. yeah, im underweight
017. Do you have a crush on someone: yes.
018. Do you likeyourself: depends on the day. right now, im pretty okay with myself.
019. Braces: used to
020. Think your awesome: No
021. Piercings: one on each ear.
022.Tattoo: henna? before
023. Righty or Lefty: right, though im practicing on my left
___Your 'Firsts'___
024. Surgery: none, and hopefully never
025.First piercing: when i was 2
026. First best friend: simonette artadi-crisologo XD
027. FirstAward: certificate at pre-school
028. First Sport You Joined: swimming club in the 3rd grade
029. First pet: dog. i had one before i was born
030.First vacation: dont know T_T
031. First crush: i refuse to answer! no, i just don't know who.
032. First love: not telling LOL
___Favorites___
033. Favorite movie: pirates of the carribean? lord of the rings? The fast and the furious: TOKYO DRIFT!
034. Favorite tv show: Rozen Maiden Series
035. Color: black, blue, silver, red, white
036.Music: Jrock, JPop, rock
039. Drink: Orange juice, gatorade, water
040. Part of the face on a boy/girl: eyes
041. Cartoon character: Suigin Tou from Rozen Maiden
042.Favorite artist: dunno
043. Perfume: dunno
044. FavoriteFood: Japanese ramen~
045.Favorite School: none
046. Favorite Animal(s): cat
047. Favorite Book: too many
048. FavoriteMagazines: i dont have one
___Currently___
049. Eating: hmm... i ate crackers :D
050. I'm drinking: gatorade
052. I'm about to: go to Denny's for lunch XD
053. Listening to: my dad's bar music
055. Waiting For: my time to come
056. Watching: nothing
057. Wearing: jeans, roxy long-sleeved shirt, socks, bracelet, bangle, choker, cross necklace
___Your Future___
058. Want Kids: someday
059. Want to Get Married: yes, to the right person
060. Careers in Mind: diplomat, hopefully
__Which is better with the Opposite Gender__
068. Lips or Eyes: eyes
069. Hugs or Kisses: friends: hugs special someone: both
070. Shorter or Taller: slightly taller
072. Romantic or Spontaneous: a mix of both
073.Arms or Stomach: arms
074.Sensitive or Loud: a mix of both
075. Hook-up or Relationship: relationship
076. Sweet or Caring: both
077. Trouble Maker or Hesitant: both~
___Have you ever___
078. Kissed a Stranger: NO
079. Drank bubbles: err... ._.
080. Kissed your crush: yeah
081. Ran Away From Home: almost
082. Broken a bone: nope
083. Got an X-ray: nope
084. Broken Someone's Heart: apparently i did.
086. Turned Someone Down: yeah.
087. Cried When Someone Died: yeah
088. Cried at school: yeah >_<
___Do You Believe In__
089. God: Yes
090. Miracles: yes
091.Love at first sight: err... no
093. Aliens: yup
094.Magic: no. magick, yes
095. Heaven: hai
096. Santa Claus: before
097. Sex on the first date: NO
098.Kissing on the First Date: maybe. i dont know. i dont think so. hm. let me think about that.
099. Angels: yes *love*
___Truthfully___
100. Is There someone Yu Want To be with youright now? Yes.

Kanae wrote alone 月曜日, 8月 21, 2006

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i am really homesick.
i am sick.
i miss the uk group...
i dreamt of them last night.
talked to Lisa C. over phone and Alex over MSN a while ago... *sigh*
i went to the fiesta yesterday... and it was there that i got so depressed.
looking around me, i could see mostly Filipinos of pure blood. children and adults, all of them were from the same race as i. but where were we? we're in a different country. the children dont know how to speak their native tongue. even the host couldnt speak tagalog and ended up butchering the celebratory greetings.
the fiesta was also very different. americanized.
*sigh*
it wasnt like the fiestas back home... everything was held inside the reception hall of St. Anne's parish. at home it's all in the streets, right? all festive and a time to party. they dont know how its held, i guess.
but im thankful that they do celebrate their heritage. even if they dont speak the language.
==
well, im getting better now. have to go shopping~~
i need shoes T_T
i talked to some friends back home. how i miss them.
culture ev was fun, apparently. that's good~! ^_^
congrats to all organizers~
anyway yeah.
see ya.

kanae

Kanae wrote alone 月曜日, 8月 21, 2006

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日曜日, 8月 20, 2006

the fatigue of the GYLC has finally caught up with me.
i nearly collapsed from exhaustion last night. i just had to hide it since we were having dinner with Rick and Pon last night. >_<
im feeling better now though, so it's okay. there's a fiesta later, but i really don't want to go. im still very very tired...
*sigh*
i'm also very very homesick.
i want to go home, to lie in my own bed, to wander around the familiar streets, to see familiar faces. i want to see all my friends. Lord knows i miss them so.
Pat.
Myk.
K.
Ken.
Marie.
Jansen.
i just want to go home.

kanae

Kanae wrote alone 日曜日, 8月 20, 2006

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土曜日, 8月 19, 2006

well! it was interesting...
i miss my UK group already...
22 all in all, with Miss Allison Kole as our FA.
Shirley- Peru/Miami, Florida, USA
Lisa C.- Fresno, California, USA (originally China)
Alexander- High Wycombe, Great Britain
Nathan- Houston, Texas
Kelley- Athens, Greece
Lisa M.- Rhode Island, USA
Stephanie- New Jersey, USA
Peter Z.- Botswana
Peter B.- Carribean
Andrew- Trinidad&Tobago
Kimberly- Trinidad&Tobago
LingYi Sun- Shanghai, China
Beatriz- Panama
Paulina- Mexico
David- Rome, Italy
Jacob- Rome, Italy
Craig- Zimbabwe
Angela- Botswana
Pooja- New York,USA (originally India)
Marc- Seattle, USA
Michaella- France (originally Madagascar)
Jo- Paranaque, Philippines

i really miss them. it was interesting being with all of them and learning about their different cultures. Alex is hilarious in his British way. i met a bunch of people outside my group too so that was fun.

James McMeekin- High Wycombe, Great Britain
Ben- High Wycombe, Great Britain
Paul- Great Britain
Nicole- Seattle, USA
Caitlin- Oxnard, California, USA
Ji Young Kim- Toronto, Canada (originally South Korea)
Dorothy- Mandaluyong, Philippines (!!)
Angela Soto- Mexico
Chibwe- Sapporo, Japan (originally Zambia)
Malik- Beirut, Lebanon
Andrea- St. Luis, Missouri, USA
Jeovitha- Toronto, Canada (originally India)

its very interesting meeting them.
i went dancing in my Chong Sam during the cruise. o.O wow. LOL
it was fun meeting Doray. we were both soo homesick! i wonder if she's home yet. it took me almost a week to find out about her, though i had been searching for another Filipino delegate the whole time. well guess what. she was room 503 at the Sheraton. i was room 501. jeez~
it was weird also, since i met Caitlin not during the GYLC. we met at the airport. we were on the same bus, at the same airport, on the same flight. and we didnt see each other until boarding time in Houston, during the stop-over to LA/Oakland. wow.
i had fun talking to her, though. she's really nice ^_^
im talking to Lisa C. right now. i miss her T_T
wah.
i miss everyone.
even those i wasnt close to.
sure, Manhattan College sucked (food was great, though) and Sheraton was okay, and we are all still suffering from MAJOR sleep deprivation, it was a lot of fun.
grrr my bags got lost too.
i was so ready to kill someone. sunabi was out on the loose.
we kept thinking,
"Do not start with me. You will not win."
just like those shirts in NY. LOL
bought manga too XD
it was so fun... all the memories...
i love my chong sam XD
im still pretty homesick though. i miss the GYLC, i miss home. *sob*
damn. i wanna see them all...
i was in Houston and i was like "Ooooh~ Nathan lives here! Where is he?"
damn.
i thought i saw Lisa, David and Alex there too. sadly, no. i wanted to cry. it was only there that it hit me that i am probably never going to see them again for another... 5, 10 years at least. if we're lucky. *sigh*
oh well... i hope we all keep in touch.
and i will annoy all of them >:)
yeah.
culture evolution over at the Phils.
damn i am missing so much.
*sigh*
see ya guys
i miss K.
i miss Pat.
i miss Myk.
i miss Chris.
i miss the LGM

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 土曜日, 8月 19, 2006

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水曜日, 8月 16, 2006

im in NY and i have a meeting so ill make this quick.
i miss my friends.
i dont like this place
i hate parties here
i find everything so pointless
and i am returning to full goth mode.
yeah!~
and i have to eat breakfast soon.
just grab an apple then run to the 11th floor, i guess...
cruise later.
everything's over tomorrow.
bye.

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 水曜日, 8月 16, 2006

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土曜日, 8月 12, 2006

i am here in washington DC right now using the internet which my friend is paying for but which she is using on my laptop. get it? i don't think so. LOL
she's Peruvian. kewl. LOL
and ive met a bunch of people, had to pay for freaking expensive internet and i am going crazy! there's only one other Filipina here, and sad to say, no japanese kids. darn.
i bought Manga!! i have Death Note 1,3,4, now and im going to get 5 and 6 when i head of to NY tomorrow. can't wait.
so far our week's been really busy; get up at 6-7 am then end at 10pm. lights out (daw) at 11. the whole day is usually full of walking if we're out, or meetings if we're in.
the sheraton's food is... well... eww.
we're off to Manhattan college, NY tomorrow, so hopefully food and internet conditions will be better there. sad to say however, living conditions will not.
as Allison (our FA) said,
"it's pretty good there... just like...hm... Jail."
us: O.O hwaaaaaaaaaaat~?
she's pretty funny, allison.
i hang around with Shirley a lot here, and my roommates are an NY-grown indian girl named Pooja and a Canadian-grown Korean named Ji Young Kim. LOL~
that was the name of a Korean who used to go to my school. im pretty sure it's not her though.
we're going to have dinner soon; Shirley and i are splitting on Pizza. yum.
so there, ya.
that's been my week.
so see ya next week, hopefully ^____^
my USB port is CRAP by the way.
anyway
Ja~
love,

Kanae

PS.
I MISS YOU GUYS A LOT.

Kanae wrote alone 土曜日, 8月 12, 2006

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日曜日, 8月 06, 2006

listening to: Hero- Arashi, Half-Pain- Bana, Cosmos no Saku Goro- Buzy, Venus Say- Buzy, Kagami no Naka- can/goo, Hitotsu=Unmei no Kyodatai- can/goo, Kimi ga Iru- Chemistry, Wings of Words- Chemisty, Fukai Mori- Do As Infinity, Aozora no Namida- Hitomi Takahashi
mood: blank, slightly depressed

let's see.
went to Hot Topic again yesterday, saw Ragdoll and Flowergirl (Precious Miseries) dolls but wasnt able to buy them coz dad said they looked like voodoo dolls. >_< dammit! i bought a blouse instead. it's punky so i like it.
dad wants me to stop wearing black. oh joy. >_< at least i've defined EGL to him so hopefully he wont tell me to stop dressing in EGL fashion or Harajuku styles.
i've got a bunch of outfits now; can't wait to wear them at home. ^_^
i was really homesick last night. Mom, Anton and Mike called to say hi, and after i put down the phone, i wanted to cry. thank goodness i was talking to Ate Shorty, Ate Anjelle and Yoru-kun then. if i wasnt, then i would have lost my sanity and cried. i don't know why i was so homesick. they're in Corregidor right now. hope they're having fun.
i wonder how the EBs went... there was one in Mega for WTF?! and one in SM North Edsa for PC. i miss everyone really badly.
i'm done packing already for my trip to Washington, New York and San Francisco. I have so much clothes!! i dont even know if my suitcase will stay under the 70 pound limit. @_@ i didn't know i bought that much stuff here...
i want to cosplay Tetsuya Ogawa so badly!! rrrr... asar!
i have opinions now for my Precious Miseries cosplay.
Goth and Glaive seem to be in the lead with three points each, followed by Lolita, Jester and Albino, then Heartbreaker and Prom Queen. everyone says Goth best suits me. why, thank you! i love her. ^_^ i find Lolita and Jester absolutely adorable though! i already have a catwalk idea for Lolita. just follow the host around... LOL
hey, that's what she does.
i want to order that Alice Ever Falling book already!! I just can't seem to get the idea out to my dad. asar.
Dad wants me to take Business as a course in college. what!? i can't do that... im not even taking business in my IB! if everyone wants Andrea to take nursing, in my case, everyone wants me to take business.
i don't want to! i have a mind for business, sure, but i can't stand numbers at all! >_< but sadly, i am considering it. a double degree in Business and Japanese language? not bad, i guess.
at least then i have two options.
i hate thinking about the future, mainly because i know nothing really awaits me there. i just want to enjoy now. the past holds nothing for me; the future is always uncertain. i just like being in the present. i never want to move. it may seem selfish, but i've been scarred too many times to care. i don't like uncertainties. i wish everything were as it seemed, but i know that's too much to ask.
I'm a little Alice in Wonderland.
i always was terrified of that book. i hated the movie; it scared me as a child. until now i still don't like it. i think it's because i saw through all the color and fake smiles of the movie and instead saw the illogic, the uncertainties, the helplessness of the little girl lost in a world that was not her own, and saw myself in her. as a child i knew the world was not the happy place they always tell you in storybooks; i knew of the pains of the world too. i knew fairytales never came true, but i liked to dream on anyway. until now i dream of worlds like those in the movies, where everything you wanted could come true, that you could be free, that you could be a princess if you tried. but still it discourages me because i know that you can't. no matter how hard you try the world isnt going to change; everyone will remain the same. no matter what. and that really depresses me.
they say i put the troubles of the world on my shoulders. so i do. i think about the other's suffering and not just my own. i don't mind if i'm in pain, i just don't want the ones that i love to feel or know it. i havent killed myself, i havent physically scarred myself for that reason. i don't want anyone else to see when im in pain, because then they will worry and be in pain too. i hate that. to be the cause of my loved ones' tears or pain is what i am most afraid of. i hope i never am...
im off to Washington DC later and i wont have any internet. when i do get on the internet im pretty sure it will be very short. i'll miss talking to my friends... i'll miss talking to him. i have to check time differences so i can time OL schedules if i can. hopefully i can catch them.
dad wants me to stop going on the internet for extended periods at a time. he says im becoming addicted to ot; that my whole life revolves around the computer. what!? it's only here in LA that ive been on the computer for a long time. know why?! because i cant relate with anything here. Andrea watches TV while talking to her friends, Dad, tita Leila and tito George all talk about the stock market or Rod Stewart (well, that was last night's conversation). i have no interest in the stock market or Rod Stewart. plus im dreadfully homesick. that's why i stay infront of the computer... because i want to talk to them again. that's all.
i know my friends are not the only people in this world. of course. there are 6-7Billion people out there. 8million live in the Philippines alone. 1million in Manila. well, i really have no interest in meeting them. the reason i love my friends so is because i feel that at least i can be myself with them, and that they understand who i am. Sofia has been my friend for four years now. i've met so many people through her.
and besides, it's not as if they're my only friends. i have other friends too, but it's different when you're with your barkada, with the people you really share the same interests with, the people you really trust. i find it hard to trust people and to find interest in them. that's why i only keep a small circle of friends close to me. mom and dad dont understand that. i wish they would.
i like being alone. they have a weird child. sorry. ive been scarred enough, i don't want to risk it again.
*sigh*
oh well...
maybe they'll think about it while im gone. im growing up. let me grow. i don't want to remain like Jun Sakurada in Rozen Maiden: unable to grow.
he was being stunted by his sickness, i am being stunted by their protection.
things im bringing to the GYLC:
clothes,
Shiroi,
Myk's drumsticks,
bracelets from Kuya Lyron
bangles
money
other misc stuff

i wear Kuya Ly's bracelets everyday here. it reminds me of home. i wish i brought the white thing too. darn. michael asked me where i got the bracelets, and when i told him that it was from Kuya Ly, he started saying that Kuya might like me. haha... no. kuya ko yun! lol.
waah i miss everyone again.
wish me luck in Washington and New York.
i'll try to update whenever possible.
ja~

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 日曜日, 8月 06, 2006

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土曜日, 8月 05, 2006

hm...
i woke up late today.woke up at 6am and missed my conference with Ate Ceravi and the Sakura Wars team. whoops.
but then, i did have a nice chat with K and Chris and them.
shopping later, and hopefully then i can order my Alice Ever Falling book.
wondering...
what to buy, what to buy...
still waiting.
you know what i mean?

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 土曜日, 8月 05, 2006

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金曜日, 8月 04, 2006

currently listening to: nothing
current mood: thoughtful, hyper.

haha!
went to Disneyland with Dad and Andrea today. we went on almost every single ride there except Space Mountain. 60minutes waiting time? no way.
having a chat with Diego right now... very interesting. i learn a bunch of stuff from him everytime we chat.
i have a couple of opinions now for my Precious Miseries cosplay. Lolita, Glaize, Goth and Heartbreaker are in the lead, with Prom Queen and Jester not far behind. i don't know which one to do; they're all so cute! im looking for one that matches my personality and build best, and of course, i have to take into consideration the cost of it. ive already emailed Mannequins Inc asking them how much the wigs will cost. i will not spend anymore money here in the states unless absolutely necessary so i can fund my cosplays. ^_^
i really want to do this.
im thinking of pulling out of some groups so i can just do independent cosplays. its easier rin kasi eh, and with my time frame, medyo mahirap. so i don't know.
maybe my rayearth group and FoR. im still thinking about it. maybe FY too. but i don't know yet; maybe it's just me.
later i have to get up at 5am for my Sakura Wars group meeting. amp! that means i have to sleep now. yoko pa. im still chatting with Diego eh. lol.
im going to glomp him when i see him again. really.
august30, diego. i will glomp you! LOL
and you keep your mouth shut ill keep mine the same way. ^_^
i have to talk to pat and mommy Lu:na about the cos. i need their opinions!
anyway, i had fun today.
i have finally grown a liking for roller coasters! yey! after... how many years. ._.
haha.
all in all, today was good.
flight to New York leaves Saturday evening. wish me luck, guys.

Kanae

thoughtful
happy
content
LOL

Kanae wrote alone 金曜日, 8月 04, 2006

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木曜日, 8月 03, 2006

okay today was pretty interesting.
we went to Hollywood today, but we didnt see any celebrities. oh well.
we ate in a nice italian cafe; the sandwhiches are HUGE dammit! i was only able to finish half of it. Roast beef and Pastrami... yum... ^__^
after we headed over to Sta Monica and stayed by the beach side, passed Malibu then wound up back here in Simi Valley.
not much to take note off, though.
i have a problem with my GYLC Admission; i do not have my student ID so basically i'm dead. ive already mailed them asking for it; let's see how that goes.
i have also made up my mind to re-read Alice in Wonderland no matter how much the movie terrified me as a child, and to buy the Alice Ever Falling book. Dad already agreed to pay for it. YEY!! Alice Ever Falling~~
Chris Sternwood from that book is hot. @_@ and Erin Lovely is so pretty. I want to cosplay her too.
Oh!
I've gotten permission from Seven if I could cosplay the Precious Miseries girls, and she agreed!! i'm going to send her pics when i'm done. Now I just have to figure out which doll to cosplay...
it doesnt matter to me if people in the Philippines arent familiar with them; here's the chance to spread the world! plus it's really cute so screw them. lol
Hot Topic might stop supporting them! NOOOOO~~~~~
i showed the pics to Mommy Lu:na and she said they were cute. XD
I'm the youngest child now! well, youngest girl. Aren kasi eh. XP pero okay lang haha. sabi niya nag-suggest si Aren na mag costrip ang pamilya. Sure!! saya nun!! lol
cant wait... sobra
Tomorrow we're headed off to Disneyland. im actually kinda excited about it.
anyway im off.
sleep time!!
night.

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 木曜日, 8月 03, 2006

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水曜日, 8月 02, 2006

well today was fun!
Andrea and I went to Universal Studios, Hollywood today. it was fun!!
a lot of walking around, but it was okay. the Mummy Returns ride was so much fun! but... i did keep my eyes shut throughout the frightening parts of the ride... i was scared, so sue me. >_< we went to WaterWorld, got a bit wet and laughed at those that got soaked... bwahahahaa~
went to the tour-thing and saw the beautiful cars used in Tokyo Drift... I LOVE THAT MOVIE.
anyway... we went home around five or six-ish, got here to Simi around 7. finished dinner around 8.
I like In-N-Out. the burgers are good!
we're off to Hollywood tomorrow, then maybe to Disneyland on Thursday. Friday will be spent shopping. Saturday, packing for the trip and then the trip to Baltimore, Washington for the GYLC.
i've got busy weeks ahead of me... and limited internet time. T_T
dammit! i love this internet... 24/7.
my travel plan will be real busy:
Los Angeles-Washington (plane with dad)
Washington-New York (bus with GYLC)
New York-San Francisco (plane with dad)
San Fransisco-Texas (plane with dad and Lola and maybe Andrea)
Texas-Los Angeles (plane with dad and lola and maybe Andrea)
Los Angeles-Manila (plane with dad and lola)
i have to finish all my shopping by Friday. last chance is the Sunday before we leave. pasalubong, pasalubong, pasalubong.
shopping too.
here we go...
ja

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 水曜日, 8月 02, 2006

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火曜日, 8月 01, 2006

ohkay. this is going to be a freaky blog entry to most, so those who arent open-minded or get freaked out easily, skip this portion of my blog.
you're going to think i'm crazy or a witch.
i'm not.
yet.
err...
anyway, moving on...
skip this portion of my blog, if you please. thank you very much. highly appreciated.
those who can read it?
EULA.- eula patulong.

ABIGAIL.- abz chat tayo kaagad.
PATRISHA.- alam ko di ka maniniwala pero kelangan eh. makigamit ka kay chris PLEASE. kahit sandali lang.
INEZIA.- thanks te.
that's about it.
sorry, K, but you'll get freaked out by this just a tiiiny bit so... ^_^;;
don't read it.

okay i learned about my past life yesterday and this morning from a friend of mine who does this sort of thing. admittedly, i do too, but i've stopped practicing because i got caught and all my beautiful tarot cards went *poof*! so obviously, i can't.
i've been through two lives already, which explains the existence of Sage and Sunabi. i don't know which one of them came first, however.
(Robin, these i've figured out from soul-searching. i decided to do some on my own and i these conclusions are from that activity. my skills aren't as sharp as they used to be plus im not in my home setting where my power is strongest so the conclusions are rather vague. please correct me if im wrong and please help me figure out everything. i really have this burning urge to know who i really was and am.)
my friend has explained my second past life to me, the life i acquired the skills i have now buried within me:
i was an Englishwoman with long, curled hair and fair skin, and i was formerly a noble until my father sold me to become a peasant because he had to pay off some debts. then in the rain, i saw an old woman who was dying of hunger. moved by pity, i gave her the meal i had. meager as it was, it was enought to satisfy her hunger.
lo and behold, she awarded me with a gift and the warning:
"remember these words, remember them well, for what i bequeath you with is more than just a spell, you will live your next lifetime well enough... and your father will reach his hell.... he will be apart from you most of the time, for he must pay his price"
i do realize that is easy to believe that this is all false and that it may be a trick. however, i know it is not, and it shall be explained later.
i died young. i never age past sixteen or eighteen, for before nineteen i have already passed away. sounds morbid, i know, but that's my fate, it seems:
like Robin, to be eternally sixteen though we are aged well past that... i am very young though, in terms of soul years. i am only 300 this year! still very young. however, i still look like i am sixteen years old.
i remember that when i first died i was fifteen or sixteen. she confirms it. i was pushed down the stairs while i was 3 months pregnant and i died from the loss of blood.
the father of my child was a nice man, but a bit strict. that is all i remember.
i have yet to ask her the rest of the details.
like...
how did i know the father of my child?
was i married to him?

what was our story?
how did i survive as a peasant girl?
WHO KILLED ME?!
Robin, i hope you're reading this...


interesting, isn't it?

i can explain why i believe it.
these are honest memories. when she told me, it hit me suddenly. i remembered fragments... fragments of the memories of my aged yet young soul. but i still don't know everything. i want to know the details. i want to know about the father of my child. i want to know who killed me. >_>
everything happens for a reason, right?
now i know why i met him.

i've met the father of my child, brief though it was. i will not post the name here; it is very dangerous. but i can tell you that i know who he is, and i love him.
and so that's why i've felt i've known you forever...
i have to talk to Robin when i get home.
immediately. her and K.
honestly, everything fits.
i've always been mistaken for a sixteen year old, even when i was merely thirteen or fourteen.
i get flashbacks because of the gift granted to me.
i love children and long for one because i was supposed to have one of my own.
ive felt like ive known him forever; truth be told, we've known each other for only a few months.
why i am this way: like a Victorian Era girl.
why i love lilies.
it all makes sense.
Robin-neesama, i hope we talk again. there are so many things i'm dying to ask you.

strangely, i felt her calling a while ago... ^_^
i believe her. she knows so much about me and we've only just met. it's amazing. and strangely, i feel like i've known her before as well. i feel very comfortable with her as well.
K, i hope you don't get scared or freaked out reading this. i am so sorry.


OH SHIT.
i'm going to die soon.
good Lord!
jumpstart...
i wasnt paying enough attention when she told me about it... i wasnt reading between the lines, concentrating enough to realize the gravity of the situation. all until now.
jumpstarts...
oh no.
ate...

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 8月 01, 2006

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Hikari No Rasentritsu
End theme of Rozen Maiden: Traumend

Your fingertips that touched me
Lighting my heart
The melody that begins to flow
Hopes for love

The tip of a wounded branch
Is it fated to rot away?


In the rift of the closed time
Little droplets of light are lost

The end of dreams only wishes for you alone

The silver moonlight
Reflects in my eyes
A tranquil melody-
Please, be eternal

The sound of an engraving needle
is it fated to not resist?

A hollow spiral of light
Surrounded this torn illusion

What I yearn for is simply a happy conclusion

Brimming in the glass-colored rift
Are calm droplets of light

The end of dreams only wishes for that alone

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 8月 01, 2006

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alright! i went shopping again yesterday.
oh god i am so babaw.
i went to Hot Topic, which gave me ideas for stuff to customize, and i found some nice shoes there. found a nice blouse too. went around, bought stuff.
some girl yelled, "oh and by the way, i LOVE your outfit!" while i was looking through stuff. o.O
that was weird. i never get that comment before. i was just in my black and white lolita outfit. oh well. at least im somehow appreciated. ^_^
let's see...
k woke me up by calling my computer. never again, k. please... you'll wake up half the house. ^_^;; just buzz and im fine. ill wake up...

...eventually. joke lang! ^_^

only he can wake me up.
weird, but, yeah. ^_^;;

currently having a semi-mindless and pointless conversation with myk.
with the word gwam.
ohkay.
my morning has been... interesting.
talked to poch too. it was nice talking to him again.

rozen maiden songs have been stuck in my head. o.o
i want to cosplay suigin tou again... T_T
waaah...!!
asar... T_T
damn im homesick...
dad's arriving tonight.

~kanae

bored
homesick
I MISS YOU.
pakshet XD

Kanae wrote alone 火曜日, 8月 01, 2006

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