in the midst of my solitude

木曜日, 6月 08, 2006

Standing on the Rooftops Everybody Scream Your Heart OuT!

okay today was NOT good... academics-wise anyway
i had a hard time staying awake in class today because my head hurt sooo bad
im having a breakdown already... everyone's been so burned out...
it's not just me: Luke, Chy, Kim, Victor and even Hannah are having burnouts. im just on the verge of a physical and mental breakdown right now that i can't even think.
and my head hurts so much. i just need rest... not the sleep rest... i need a month to get everything back into order inside my head. i wake up in the morning still feeling exhausted... i try to read something and i get a headache... i go into math class and i feel like killing myself. im not making arte, but i really do. twelve months of school is taking its toll on me: physically and mentally. my personality shifts are getting more serious; i can barely control them now. i sometimes half my body with another personality; other times they completely take over. and it's scary. Seika Taisei, my crazy, psycho and horribly violent counterpart has been fighting to take over me and she's succeding because of my instability. Sunabi takes over a lot, and thankfully she keeps Seika in. if not... i dread to think of what would happen. i will try and control her, though... though it seems only one person can...
i just need some rest to get order back into my system... i need it so badly... *sigh*

had a nice talk with *K* last night, and i got to draw again! yey!
and apparently chris had a nice time with Aya... yeeheee....
we're (hopefully) going to DV on Monday... and then get my Suigin Tou costume!! yapo!!
i can't wait!!
cosplay picnic too... yey... raming event!! yahooo!!
then i have to do the TIIS banner pa... whee...
oh well! got to go... see ya!

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 木曜日, 6月 08, 2006

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