in the midst of my solitude

木曜日, 10月 26, 2006

Neural Atrophy= Neural Death
Entropy= Disorder

yes, i learned new vocabulary today.
from my chemistry class. isnt that wonderful?
go figure.
anyway, ive been thinking.
Ive been reading a lot of Death Note, and i admit im a HUGE fan of the series. i think now i know why.
Light Yagami.
not HIM... but parallels i find in him.
im not an ace student; im rather borderline.
im not in college; im still in High School.
but attitude-wise... i realize i have a tendancy to be like him.
I, like him, find life to be very painfully boring. if a Death Note landed in my hands, i would probably have done the same thing. scary isnt it?
i really would try to do the same thing. if not, i would be like L.
not a child genius; that i will never be.
but i would try to catch was doing it.
oh, and i love Near.
i dont know enough about him, but i love him anyway.
*sighs* sometimes i wish all these things existed. Life is soo boring.
nothing excites me for a long time...
well, admittedly, a few things do, but things like chemistry and math? no.
ordinary life? no.
friends and lovelife? yes.
but seriously... i am soo bored with my life. oooh chiyo! *clicks window to chat with chiyo*
finally!
im still in touch with her after 2 years of not seeing her. i SHOULD see her again. i will... eventually, i guess. XD i miss her.
oh crap she left. dammit!
anyway... yeah, i miss her. she's the one who introduced me to a lot of things... that kept my life interesting and bearable.
trust me, if it weren't for her... i would be dead of boredom. i used to be so bored with life that i contemplated jumping off my roof just to keep things interesting.
*clicks window to chat with chiyo*
yup, she's back.
anyway...
i miss the old house, when i used to lie on the rooftop at sundown, watching the dusk change to the night. i would have my disk player on, listening to L'arc while watching the world go by. that kept me sane. i cant do that anymore now... its hard to get to the roof. lol
i used to have chiyo come over a lot too, and we'd talk there. lol
she used to be my neighbor, you see, that's why we became rather close. even when she moved away, we remained friends. *sigh*
life was a lot calmer back then... now its in a state of entrophy.
meaning, chaotic.
not all the time... but sometimes it is. when grades come, when the past comes, then it becomes total anarchy. like yesterday... >_> but that's over.
at least i got those thoughts out of my head... i know he's a decent guy, but seriously. at that time, masakit talaga.
pero okay lang.
i just realized that everything does happen for a reason.
if he didnt break it off, then i wouldnt have liked Christian. if i didnt liked Christian, then i may not have gone to Asilo. if i didnt go to Asilo, then i may not have met Yoru-kun. if i did not meet Yoru-kun, then it wouldnt be "us" now. amazing, isnt it?
i make clear that hindi panakit-butas si Christian. pero kung sinagot ko man si Chris, hindi ako magkakagusto sa kanya. LOL.
wonderful, im starting to think.
i proclaim this blog entry as VERBAL DIARRHEA.
yes, i am bored.
oh! and i learned a few songs from Chynna. ^_^;;

The Water Buffalo song.
"everyone's got a water buffalo
yours is fast and mine is slow
ooooooooooooh
everyone's got a baby kangaroo
yours is red and mine is blue
aaaaaaaaaaaaa"

then the Cow song. (sorry keno T_T)

"the cow in the meadow goes moo
the cow in the meadow goes moo
the farmer hits it in the head
and grinds him up
and thats how we get hamburgers."

yes i am bored.
OH! i learned something in chemistry today!

The Chaos Theory in Physics:
The world always has a tendancy to go into a disordered state

The Entropy Theory in Chemistry:
In nature, systems naturally tend towards disorder.

Entropy is created.
Entropy is chaos.
therefore, i concluded that CHAOS is CREATED. nyarhurhurhur.

i am soo... basag.
seriously.
i guess im just waay too tired to even think. lol
oh! my parents are out for the weekend... >:)
First up,
EBs in Mega!
Second,
Rain's Halloween party.
XD
yes! freedom!! XD
i love being free.

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 木曜日, 10月 26, 2006

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