in the midst of my solitude

日曜日, 10月 08, 2006

i believe in God but i dont believe in the Church.

sorry, flame me but i dont care. its my belief.
hey why dont I? well mainly because my brother and i are condemned by the catholic church for the sins of my parents. yey. so the offspring of a failed marriage is equal to condemnation? oh yeah, thanks a lot! and guess what? my family has a lot of Opus Dei in us. so yey, im condemned by my family too! party! NOT.
did you know that if you come from an imperfect family, you cant get into certain schools here int eh Philippines?? they dont want to "contaminate" the clean innocent ones.
that's the explanation they gave to my mom when she wanted to enroll me in Woodrose.
so yeah, i understand that marriage is an act solemnized in the eyes of God and no man or woman has the right to break it blah blah blah but GET REAL. we're not living in the 8thcentury! so many circumstances have changed. you're saying that even if our husbands treat us like dogs, if they physically and emotionally abuse us, if they try to kill us we STILL have to stay there!? i dont think so! God wants us to be happy. God wants us to LIVE SANELY. God wants equal opportunity, i believe. women were not created for the sole reason of being Men's slave or sex partners. we are human. men are human. and we all make mistakes.
how would priests know about marriage when they've never even BEEN married? no they wont know. you dont know the difficulties of sustaining a marriage when you have a job and kids. you dont know how it is like to argue with your spouse. you dont know how its like to have to deal with your spouse's mistakes.
i do understand that being a priest is like being married to God. but its still very different. God isnt human, God is perfect. God doesnt make mistakes. God doesnt piss you off.
(hey sad but true your spouse will piss you off somewhere along the line.)
so you cant actually say that its the same thing because its NOT. being married to God is different from being married to another imperfect human being.
im not saying i support divorce; rather, i hate it. it tears apart a family, it ruins the children. it leaves scars for the rest of your life. but what im saying is that sometimes... it has to be done for your sake and the sake of your children. just like breaking a relationship for the welfare of yourself is needed when you are abused. my parents broke up because they cared for myself and my brother. yes you need a reason a to have a divorce. but im pretty sure that divorce is a last option for couples. why would you marry in the first place if your going to divorce anyway!?
another thing. how is family planning evil?
how is stopping the country from self-destruction because of over-population evil? so youre condemning Singapore and China, i guess. they're firm believers of family planning, although Singapore went a weee bit too far. now they lack babies. anyway, putting that aside. the reason why we need family planning is because hello, our country is dying of poverty. how can children live if they dont have enough money for food? they cant! are you going to pay for their food, their shelter, their needs? i dont think so! its for the benefit of their family. now why again do you not like it?oh right, because marriage is for reproduction. yes i do know that people have sex after their marriage and end up having kids. marriage is not only for reproduction, you know. people know that. and they have sex because some like too. thats why sometimes its good to have lessons about sex and family planning. at least then you know what a condom is for. in poverty stricken areas: condom usage=less children=less poverty. im not saying children are the cause of poverty. im saying this for the less fortunate.
take my mom's manicurist for example:
she's dirt-poor (i mean it), can barely support two children, what more four, and she's already pregnant with her fifth. and she arns Php120 for each lady she manicures. what!? and when asked why dont you practice family planning, she at first said
"what's that?"
now she says
"its against the church."
huh!? they're going to die of poverty at this rate.
i pity them really bad.
our country is being brainwashed by the church. its like they're saying that we cant think of anything else other than what the church says. hell even our politics is influenced by the church! ever heard of separation of Church and State? we're supposed to have that here, but nooo. we dont! before a politician can be successful, he has to have the endorsement of the church. and the church meddles in every single bill it can. that's why so many bills that can help the country dont get passed. ugh! its so frustrating.
oh you know what they said about the human rights bill for women? the one that says women have a right to spacing between kids? they said that its wrong and its evil.
what the heck!? how?
you know why women need that? because womens health go down when they give birth. we're sacrificing our blood and minerals per baby. we need spacing between children to recover for what we've lost. if not we can lose too much and DIE. is that what you want?
jeez all you have to say is "we dont like women" and we'll get it. tss.
we're not that stupid.
but hey, maybe they'll learn their lesson...
...after another 6million+ women are killed like in the inquisition before. at the most, more than 6m+ women were killed in one inquisition alone. they were blamed for being Witches. sad thing is, most women were probably innocent.
Spanish Inquisition
English Inquisition
German Inquisition
French Inquisition
use your brains, witches dont do rituals in daylight. they need the light of the moon and the blessing of the night to make their spells work. damay-damayan lang naman yan eh. it's like Mao Tse-Tung's torture chambers.
and you know the sad thing is, the Pope Benedict the 18th supports the inquisitions. when i found out he became Pope and is leading the Church (i watched for the announcement on CNN until 2am, when it was announced), i nearly cried. i thought
"Please... no more Inquisitions... I dont want to die."
if he ordered one, the Philippines would surely carry out their own. and i would probably perish in it.
that's why i find it sooo stupid.
I believe God.
I love God.
I know God loves me.
but I dont believe in what the Catholic Church is doing.
When the priest was giving all of this out i wanted to stand up and say
"may i provoke the right to argument or is that against the Catholic Church too?" i was so close to walking out. i wish i did.
it would wake everyone up.
all the masses blindly follow. so sad. the Church, instead of helping the country rise up, is bringing it down.
I talked to my mom about it and she asked me about religion. i said "im changing religion to Christianity."
she said
"your dad wont allow it."
i replied
"he cant do anything when im 18."
im only forced to attend mass. I love God but i hate the church. i just find it useless.
and i only get pissed off when these topics are discussed.
thing is, we're taught to argue these things in the IB. i can come up with so many arguments against it, if only i were allowed to voice it out. its soo frustrating!
only comfort is that maybe one day they'll learn.
and im changing religions when im 18.
these are my thoughts
flame me if you will.
i love GOD. i believe in God
cant say the same of the Church.

I believe in God
the Father Almighty
Creator of Heaven and Earth
I believe in Jesus Christ, his only Son our God
who was concieved by the power of the Holy Spirit
was borne of the Virgin Mary
he suffered under Pontius Pilate
was crucified, died and was buried
he descended into the dead
on the third day he rose again
he ascended into Heaven
and is seated at the right hand of the Father
he will come again to judge the living and the dead
I believe in the Holy Spirit,
the communion of saints
the forgiveness of sins
the ressurection of the body
and life everlasting
Amen.

Kanae.

Kanae wrote alone 日曜日, 10月 08, 2006

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