in the midst of my solitude

水曜日, 10月 25, 2006

chris, in my memory stream again.
i had a talk with abigail a while ago... she saw him in KFC...
they talked for a while.
and he asked about me.
i wonder what she said. well... apparently she mentioned I had a boyfriend. "ahh parehas yung school niyo sa boyfriend ni Jo, iba lang branch."
apparently he switched topic after that.
he's still heartbroken, she says. still no girlfriend yet either. why not? i honestly thought he would have a girlfriend now.
and now... i cant help but wonder... does he still really care for me... the way i used to care for him? even if its not on the scale i cared for him... was he serious?
i admit, i used to worry about him a lot...
irresponsible...
lazy...
smokes...
makulit...
annoying...
but hey, he grew on me.
when he finally made his move, i was so happy.
i had been waiting a total of three years. thats a long time.
hey i did have a life. its just that he mattered a lot to me.
crushes during that period:
FUMI.
that's another one... to be saved for later, and to hopefully be forgotten.
anyway. i now begin to wonder...what if.
ganun ba ako kaimportante sa buhay mo? kasi nun, feeling ko hindi eh. parang binabalewala mo lang ako nun eh. yun feeling ko... at hindi mo pa sinabi sa akin yung totoong dahilan kung bakit mo ako iniwan ng ganun.
dont get me wrong; I LOVE KHALLAENE. i love him very much, as a matter of fact.
its just that ive learned when matters of the past come... they have to be addressed. and this one might as well be. *sighs*
i just wish it didnt have to happen this way.
but still... if he's heartbroken over what happened...
well, you had your chance. you let it slip away...

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 水曜日, 10月 25, 2006

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