in the midst of my solitude

水曜日, 2月 22, 2006

i am dead.
my allowance has been cut-off for a month because my mother has discovered the presence of tarot cards in my bag. and she has thrown my beautiful Feye deck into the trash bin. how... depressing.
she will eventually allow me to transfer to the Christian Church (maybe Victory), and she will talk to my father about it.
and my computer is broken... and now i have an annoying test coming on. this annoys me to pieces...
oh dear.
and i'm not allowed to wear black anymore. will this get any worse!?

miserable,
kanae

Kanae wrote alone 水曜日, 2月 22, 2006

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月曜日, 2月 20, 2006

what a boring day this will be.
i have english and then chinese. thing is, i forgot to review for a test i have. rrr. i'm going to be late for class, but i don't really care right now. i'm too lazy.
i'm bringing egg tarts for chynna and kim.
*sigh* i'm getting up... getting up...
oh Lord, i'm LATE!!!

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this is so bad.
i don't know anything in chinese!
time to study...
i'd rather sleep, though.

ja ne,
Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 月曜日, 2月 20, 2006

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土曜日, 2月 18, 2006

みんな様、今晩は!
私は博しました!
"Best Female Costume"を博しました!
うれしです。。。
今に、私は”Au Revoir"聞こえます。いいですね?私のCosplayはマナ様、Au Revoir.　
今日はすばらしいと楽しい。
マナ様をここに知ってるです!よかった!
マナ様を採っても好きです。。。神様、ありがとう!今日、あなたは私を見上げました、と助けましただから私は博しました。私の心から、本当にありがとうございました!
Pinoy CosplayのGibsさん、おめでとうございました!
今、私は疲れますと眠りです。みんな様、お休みなさい。
じゃまたね!
香苗

Everyone, good evening.
I won!!!!
I won the Best Female Costume Award!!
I'm very happy… It was my first time to ever cosplay, and I won the Best Female Costume Award... I'm very happy!
Today was wonderful and fun. Everyone had a good time, and all the preparation I had to do in the morning was absolutely worth it. I spent two hours this morning fixing the wig and the make-up. My cousin, Michelle, did the make-up, and she did a great job at it. We used about 50 pins for the wig. Ouch...
We got to the site at around 11:30, and I was already in costume. It must have been quite a sight; we parked in the parking lot and I had to walk to Tinoco Park. Interesting... I met up with Jansen, Martin and their friend J there too.
Marie came later at around 1:00. She's really nice, and I enjoy her company.
When we got there, I was surprised by the reception I received. Everyone was very nice, and they could tell I was dressed JRock Malice Mizer. Wonderful! They do know Mana様 here in the Philippines! There was another group that dressed as Malice Mizer, but they weren't very good. One attempted a Kami, and she did okay.
At 2:00, we had the parade, and we went around half of UST. It was tiring, but I enjoyed myself anyway. It was just quite hard to walk because of the dress.
A lot of people took photos of me, and I must admit, I enjoyed myself quite a bit. It was interesting. I will come out on TV too! I can't wait...
I realized today that I have a habit of bowing to people as a way of saying "thank you" or when I greet them. Interesting... I thought that faded away after Kobe. Apparently not... But that's good.
There were a lot of good cosplayers there too. All in all, we were 120. Almost all were anime or PS. No JRock exept me and the Malice Mizer group. My favorites were Power Rangers, Chibi Sailor Venus (she was six years old and absolutely adorable!) and Gaara. The girl who dressed as Koenma (and the other girl who dressed from Bleach, I think) were very nice to me. Apparently Power Rangers (Gibs) knows me from www.pinoycosplay and www.filcosplay.tk. Interesting. Gibs did a great job with his performance. He won first place too! I wanted him to win; he was very nice. The third placer was Gaara, and he was great too! Nice arm... an arm of Shukaku. He used the stuffings of his bed... Ouch. They are apparently experienced; Gaara won third place at UP kAME Ulit! which I attended last November (which was my first anicon EVER and where I met Marie), and Gibs has been cosplaying for a year now. No wonder they're such naturals.
CONGRATULATIONS TO GIBS OF PINOY COSPLAY!
Today I brought Kami the butterfly (I have a big butterfly replica and it's blue and so I named him Kami) to the Nihon Nights, for fun and for good luck. I had so much flowers on me; I looked like a garden. But apparently a lot of people thought it was nice.
I was so nervous for the catwalk that I rushed it, though. But oh well!
I didn't look like myself at all! But it's alright. I barely sat down today... all for the love of Mana様... Ah how I love him so. Kami, thank you. You watched over me today and helped me, and that's why I won. From my heart, truly, thank you very much.
Thank you to Ate Michelle and Ate Nitz for helping me today... and my mother for watching and my friends for cheering... and Kuya Bong for bringing me home.
Sofia is so sweet! I'm on the phone with her, and she's saying how proud she is of me. I'm so happy!
Next time, we will bring Sofia and Marie will cosplay. Marie will go as a geisha, and Sofia as Yuna or Gackt. Yes!
Today was so much fun. I won't mind doing it all over again...
Now I'm tired, and I'm going to sleep. Everyone, good night.

Till later,
Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 土曜日, 2月 18, 2006

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みんな様、今晩は。
これは今日の第３のBlog Entry. だけど、今、私はちょっと失望です。
私のバンダナをまだ受ける。
又泣いてる欲しいです。

Everyone, good evening.
This is today's third blog entry. However, my mood right now is quite disappointed.
I had not received my headband yet and so I trusted my ate to get it for me. She failed to do so, though I had thought that she would. And so... my costume is not complete and I would hate to go in an incomplete costume. It is disappointing because I went out with full trust that she would do it, and now I come home to realize that she didn't. I'm too tired to really do anything but write... I was so disappointed I wanted to cry. I leave for UST at latest, 9:00 am and that's a bit early so I may not be able to go pick it up. All my hopes come crashing down in one night. It's just so... disappointing. I want to cry again.
It is so annoying. I am at a loss on how to get it for tomorrow. I am at a loss, a complete and utter loss.
I have no idea why this happens. I was having such a good day and night, and then this one thing happens and ruins everything. It annoys me to high heavens. I don't even know why anymore. All I know is I'm tired and disappointed and I don't know what to do. Lord, how I wish these things would go away...
And I just know that Sofia wasn't ungrounded...
I just know it.
Well what do you know... she wasn't. Not until my birthday.
How bad this is.
Now I just hold my blue butterfly and wish the pain away...
sleep it away...
Kami様、お助けて下さい!
みんな様、お休みなさい。I hope you have all had a better end to your day than I have.

Utterly disappointed,
Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 土曜日, 2月 18, 2006

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金曜日, 2月 17, 2006

みんな様、
I am pleased to note that I have just picked up my dress from the tailoress and it is beautiful. I admit, there is a lack in flowers but it is beautiful nonetheless. All I need now is the wig, and it shall be complete! Wonderful!
I hope it does justice to Mana様の dress.
I will go to UST (University of Santo Tomas) at 9:00 tomorrow morning. Not yet in costume, no make-up yet. It is too hot here in the Philippines to even think about it. I must be there early so as to register as soon as possible. There are only 150 contestants for the cosplay competition and I want to be one of them. There will be people from magazines too, and that will be fun!
Although tomorrow... I can't speak a word while I'm in the dress. That is what I am afraid of. Oh well. I hope Sofia was ungrounded last night (or will be ungrounded tonight) so she can come tomorrow and act as my interpreter. Harajuku fashion is allowed, and while I am not in costume, I will be in my usual Elegant Gothic Lolita style. Founded of course, by Mana様.
I can't wait! So many of us here in the Philippines are looking forward to it... I hope we won't be disappointed.
By the way, I have changed my layout. I love Mana様, but I need a layout that has a big blogging space and that was a bit too small for my tastes. So I searched around www.blogskins.com and checked 404-error. S/he is a very good blog skin designer. For anyone else reading this and has a blog, I suggest you check her out. I found her from www.stitchesofglass.blogspot.com. She uses her layout too. Really good; highly recommended for others with blogs. I wish to learn how to make a blog skin too so that I may make my own... but oh well. never enough time...
I will change skins from time to time, but the content and the mood shall not.
Thank you again for reading.

Mana様
waiting
tomorrow
enjoy

Kanae wrote alone 金曜日, 2月 17, 2006

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皆様、お早うございます。

Everyone, good morning.
i have just taken a personality disorder test and thought you may want to see my results. they are quite agreeable. if you wish to take this test, it is found below:

Disorder Rating
Paranoid: High
Schizoid: Moderate
Schizotypal: Very High
Antisocial: Low
Borderline: Moderate
Histrionic: Moderate
Narcissistic: Low
Avoidant: High
Dependent: Moderate
Obsessive-Compulsive: High

URL of the test: http://www.4degreez.com/misc/personality_disorder_test.mv
URL for more info: http://www.4degreez.com/disorder/index.html

Quite interesting, isn't? I would suppose the psychologist i went to was right. I am schizotypal.
I took another one: Dante's Infernal Test

First Level of Hell - Limbo
Charon ushers you across the river Acheron, and you find yourself upon the brink of grief's abysmal valley. You are in Limbo, a place of sorrow without torment. You encounter a seven-walled castle, and within those walls you find rolling fresh meadows illuminated by the light of reason, whereabout many shades dwell. These are the virtuous pagans, the great philosophers and authors, unbaptised children, and others unfit to enter the kingdom of heaven. You share company with Caesar, Homer, Virgil, Socrates, and Aristotle. There is no punishment here, and the atmosphere is peaceful, yet sad.

Very interesting, isn't it! i wouldn't mind that too much... but i would still like to go up to heaven instead.

anyway... the owner of the blog where i found those tests i found to be interesting. His blog is http://stitchesofglass.blogspot.com. I don't think he's from the Philippines. I wonder where he's from... Very intresting. i read other people's blogs because well... lack of anything to do, really *shrugs* It's nice to know I'm not the only one with those disorders... or these problems about hating a certain person and stuff.. ranting... and ranting... releasing all the hatred inside... like what happened during the intrams.
yes. intrams. still a very bad memory. at least now i know htat not all third year suck. but majority of them still do. *shrugs*

the next class is Visual Arts. Wonderful! i have not gotten any of my things for painting yet, and my brushes are still lost in that duplex where we are forced to stay in because we have no house yet and i seriously want to move out of there as soon as possible. but we cannot. >.< oh well. at least when we move to the bigger house, i have my own room... my own little world... with my own loft... so i am so apart from the house! X] yes. great. so isolated... so if i'm up there they don't know i'm there... so if the house burns down, i burn with it. *knocks on wood*

i had a good chat with B today. he's my seatmate right now... but he's gone because it's lunch. my being i hate to go out in the sunlight unless i have to, i stayed here. well, he fed me chocolates, i figue i might as well talk to the guy. he's nice. i'm surprised he's close to alex. alex being alex.. i never thought she'd know someone pretty decent.
can't wait for Visual Arts. oh wait... i have to do my artwork.

see you later.
Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 金曜日, 2月 17, 2006

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木曜日, 2月 16, 2006

今晩は、皆様。
今には夜、と私はDir en greyのCageを聞こえます。トシヤのBass Soloをとっても好きです。。。一つのBandを好き、Mistula、はDir en greyを聞こえます。あのBassist, Uno、のけいは少しトシヤから。いいです!もっともっとの人々はJrockを聞こえます。
見てる下さい、私のBlogは少し変わってました。今にあのURL、http://gothiclolitadiary.blogspot.com.一番の訳は別のWebsiteのURLは同じ、そしてあれはエッチのWebsite.あれはを好きない、だから私のBlogは今Gothic Lolita Diary.
大きの仕事は今だけで終わりましたと今、私は休みします。よかった!Algebraと歴史とVisual Artsの仕事はちょっと長いです。
今日、子供たちをInternet教えました。
今、私は浸かりますだから、眠るします。皆様をお休みなさい。
じゃ又ね、
香苗

Good evening everyone.
It is currently nighttime, and I am listening to Dir en grey's Cage. I love Toshiya's bass solo in the song... I admire Toshiya as a bassist. One band that I like here in the Philippines, called Mistula, happens to listen to Dir en grey. Their bassist, Uno, happens to take some style from Toshiya. Wonderful! More and more people listen to JRock now.
As you can see, there has been a few changes to my blog. Its URL is now http://gothiclolitadiary.blogspot.com. The main reason for this is because I chanced upon another website with the URL of lolitalounge.com, and it was a pornographic site. I refuse to be linked to any sites such as those, and so chose to make this blog Gothic Lolita Diary instead.
I have just finished a huge workload and am now resting. Thank goodness! My math, history and visual arts homeworks were pretty long.
We taught children the Internet today.
Sofia has yet to speak to her mother concerning her grounding situation. I hope she gets ungrounded already... I hope to go with her to UST on Saturday. The anicon is to take place, and we have been looking forward to it for a few months now.
I am tired, so I will now sleep. Everyone, good night.
Until tomorrow,

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 木曜日, 2月 16, 2006

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今日は、皆様。
今に、私はGorillazのDareを聞こえます。彼たちを好きです。。。とっても面白い人々、ね?
今に、私は学校に。私たちはCold Warを勉強います。無ざしいです!　ユロッパとVietnamの戦。。。とっても無ざしいです。１１時３０分に、この組は終わり、そして、次の組がはじまります。次の組は英語。あれはいいです!この組はWorld History.
今、私はNightmare Before Christmasを見てます。きれいいな。。。暗いときれいいな。終わりませんでも、今夜に、私は終わる。
WASCは終わり。よかった!

Good afternoon, everyone.
Now, I am listening to Gorillaz's Dare. I like them... very interesting people, aren't they?
Now, I am in school. We are studying the Cold War. It's so difficult! Europe and the Vietnam War... very difficult. At 11:30, this class finishes and the next class begins. The next class is English. That's good! This class is World History.
Now I am watching Nightmare Before Christmas on my computer. It is beautiful... dark and beautiful. It is not finished yet, but tonight, I will finish it.
WASC is over. Thank goodness! The school can go back to normal.
We are studying Oedipus Rex by Soclates. Very interesting book... it is about a boy who falls in love with a old woman who turns out to be his mother. Disturbing... very disturbing. As it turns out, my teacher named his hamster "Plato." what a remarkable name for a hamster.
I am downloading a PV of Malice Mizer's... The special edition of Au Revoir. More Kami shots... wonderful! Can you believe that there are no Malice Mizer blog skins on blogskins.com? I wish there were more. I'm downloading The Corpse Bride (directed by Tim Burton), I downloaded The Nightmare Before Christmas and I am still downloading the live performance of Beast of Blood during their Gardenia tour. I love Malice Mizer... If only there was a way to buy their CDs here in the Philippines...
There is a JPop festival at the Shang! Finally, mainstreaming here in the Philippines... How I wish to go. Core of Sould is coming here as well. Maybe next time it will be L'arc~en~ciel? Hopefully...
I found another University that I might want to think about. SOAS in London? I hope to go there too... but my ultimate dream is Oxford University. And then one day, I will work in the United Nations...
Yes, my dreams.
CAS is to proceed in the afternoon and I shall be able to go pick my dress up tomorrow. I need to go on Saturday!
I wish Sofia will get ungrounded. Marie will be sleeping over there tonight and Sofia shall use her secret weapon upon her mother: Marie! Good luck, Sofia.

I will update this later.

For now,
I shall see you later

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 木曜日, 2月 16, 2006

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i attended the MUNA Saturday and Sunday. It was very interesting, although i screwed up saturday morning. apparently, we had to discuss issues concerning our respective countries. guess what? we didn't get the country assignments until the day before we had to go. we didn't get the issues until the morning of the MUNA. it's like sending us to war without guns or ammo. or any ideas on how to survive. liek sending a seven year old kid to Iraq. Thank goodness my coutry was Myanmar and my issue was gender equality. Myanmar has no problem with that so i could sit down and shut up. I went there with Luke Eeles, Erika Hoffman and Angelina Aki.
I met some nice people there from Brent. There was Marice Sy representing Romania, Daisuke Suzuki representing Iraq and Vin Wong representing South Africa. Very nice and friendly. Then there was Pauline Diaz representing Iran and she was a good debator. a damn good one. there were a couple of amusing guys there too. the delegates of the Netherlands, Greece and Benin were funny.

Netherlands: ... and Marijuana is legal in our country.
Benin: then the delegate of Benin would like to establish bi-lateral trade relations with the delegate of the netherlands for the sale of Marijuana!
Committee Chair: Delegate, that is out of order.

The Secretary-General (SG) and the delegate of the World Health Organization (WHO) were arguing and THAT was funny.

SG: Surprisingly, the delegate who was voted the hottest delegate was the delegate of the WHO.
WHO: chair! chair! chair! right to statement!
SG: I am very sorry WHO, but i am denying your permission to speak because i do NOT find you HOt.
WHO: Hey! I got more than ONE flower today!
SG: Yes, and i have constantly received notes from a certain delegate addressed to the WHO asking her to smile because he apparently likes to see her smile. Now i won't name names, but i can see a certain delegate reaching out to speak right now.
China: ... (reaching out to speak) Fine. (raises his hand sheepishly)
Everyone else: UY!!

that was funny.
hehe i liked someone there. yeah, he was nice and he was cute plus he was intelligent. Suzuki Daisuke caught my attention. Not as a crush, but he amused me. He amazed me too. He's pure Japanese, i think, and speaks English as fluently as an American. He has the accent and everything! Amazing, really.
then there was the guy who looked like Stephen, my cousin from Michigan. I SWEAR, if Stephen wasn't stuck in the middle of nowhere, i would have sworn that was him. they talked the same, walked the same, same height, same hair, had the same cockiness, looked smart and stupid the same way... it was seriously scary. his name was chris, i think. delegate of Bahrain. he debated with everyone a lot. India was funny too.

India: (raising placard)
SG: yes, delegate of India, to what point do you raise?
India: a point to Parliamentary Inquiry?
SG: yes, you have been recognized
India: i motion to--
SG: motion denied india, and if you motion to do anything again i will ban you.

there were lots of times like that at the end of the MUNA.

WHO: hey! SG!
SG: you are denied, WHO and if you speak one more time i will kick you out of this room.
everyone started laughing. another one:
SG: Fine, WHO, Brunei and then France may have their rights to statements in that order. India is denied.
WHO: the WHO would just like to remind all the delegates to remember not to take any drugs whatsoever, especially halucegenics such as Marijuana because it endangers you and makes you vote for the wrong things... *some parts i no longer remember*
SG: yes, WHO, we are aware of that
WHO: thank you
Netherlands: OBJECTION!
SG: we are sorry that the WHO does not acknowledge your notice, Netherlands, and we are also sorry that they do not apologize.
Netherlands: chair!
SG: yes, delegate of the Netherlands, to what point do you raise?
Netherlands: the delegate of the Netherlands would like to raise a statement to the WHO.
SG: yes, Netherlands, proceed.
Netherlands: the Netherlands cannot obey the WHO's request because Marijuana is legal in our country. HA!
everyone: NICE ONE!
SG: yes Brunei, what is your statement?
Brunei: first of all, i would like to say that since the SG has continually ignored me though i have waived my placard in his face and even jumped up and down and yet he STILL ignores me, i would like to file a diplomatic protest against the SG!
(everyone starts cheering)
Brunei: SHUT UP i only have 30seconds
(everyone starts laughing)
Brunei: anyway, i would like to file a diplomatic protest against the SG and i deman that he dances in the middle of the floor and apologizes to me!
(everyone cheers again)
SG: delegate of France, what was your statement?
France: uhhh i forgot my statement.

it was a lot of fun at the end, after all the resolutions had been passed. when all the stress had gone, it was a lot of fun.

Italy: (raising placard)
SG: yes Italy, to what point do you raise?
Italy: a point of parliamentary inquiry?
SG: yes, delegate, you have been recognized
Italy: the delegate of Italy would just like to know: what happened to the motion we filed to play a game?
SG: uhhh... yes i received that and so many of you signed that.
Bahrain: I object to that game!

the MUNA was a lot of fun when all the serious stuff was over... yeah it was a lot of fun. i would like to do it again. i would also really like to attend the GYLC. that will be fun.
it's happening again in October. i would like to go again. i think Mr. Aligonero wants me to go anyway, but as a delegate of the Philippines. YES! another country that has NO say in any matter! YEY! oh wait, that's this country! oh well. i hope i see everyone there again.
haha... good memories.
i attended the HALE concert as well. Shelldon Gellada said hi to me! i'm happy for that alone. he is such a good bassist! i like him a lot. they're really good. there were so many posers, though! i was so ashamed to be even near them.
oh well.
and then last night...
bad news this morning.
a nursing student died last night, and my cousin and two of my friends new him. i am sorry for it. he was shot twice in the chest during an attempted carnapping. i hope he rests in peace. we were at the place where he died two hours later.
it turns out he was car JACKED. stabbed and beat up too. kill the dudes who killed him!
i pray for the repose of his soul.
i might be going to the tomasinotaku Nihon Festival: 愛の日 after all! This time, i'll be going with Marie, Allison, Martin and Jansen. i met Allison and Martin in Sofia's party, which went on great, by the way. Allison is so funny! i met Ken, Kathleen and Raiza there as well. i'll still be going as MANA to Tomasinotaku. Marie will be going as a Geisha! how nice.
we played tekken and sat around and talked at Sofia's place. there was: sofia, jansen, mykhos, marie, martin, allison, kathleen, raiza and ken. we all had a good time. we watched some videos there too... nice little get-together in the middle of nowhere. i can't wait until i see them all again.

MUNA
interesting
memories
fun
RIP

love,
Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 木曜日, 2月 16, 2006

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お早うございます、皆様。
今日はＰａｔｒｉｓｈａＳｏｆｉａＤｅｌｇａｄｏの誕生日です.　お誕生日おめでとうございました。
today is Patrisha Sofia Delgado's birthday. Happy birthday
今日は又ＳｉｍｏｎｅｔｔｅＡｒｔａｄｉ－Ｃｒｉｓｏｌｏｇｏの誕生日です。お誕生日おめでとうございました。
today is also Simonette Artadi Crisologo's Birthday. Happy Birthday.
i'm going over to Sofia's place for a party later. it's all the way in Sta. Mesa, Caloocan. it's so far! oh dear.... but for the love of Sofia, then i shall go. she had better come to Sucat on my birthday, though, or i will kill her. i'm going EGL there later. probably freak out some of her friends from MSJ but oh well. Mykhos, Jansen and Marie will be there as well.
まだ私は泣いてました神さんのＴｒｉｂｕｔｅＶｉｄｅｏを見てましただから。ああ神さん。。。安らかに眠らせてお願いします。皆さん、いつも神さんを幸せに覚えてる、ね?
I cried again because I saw Kami's Tribute video. Oh Kami... Please Rest In Peace. Everyone, let's always remember Kami happily, alright?
Why do i cry when i watch that video? or any video concerning Kami, for that matter. well, not always but... i cried today. how embarassing! i noticed there are Kami Tributes on youtube.com. good. like Gackt, i don't want him to be forgotten. one of the best drummers of Japan (along with Yoshiki of X-Japan) should not be forgotten. ever. just like Hide of X-Japan or Kazuki of Raphael. they shouldn't be forgotten either. or Okazaki Ritsuko, the Japanese composer. Hide even has a museum dedicated to him! Kazuki has a huge fan site too... the members of Janne Da Arc came to pay their respects to Kazuki when he died. the poor kid died of a medicine overdose. he had a sickness of some sort that required him to take a medication to keep him calm. i say kid because he was nineteen. they (Raphael and Janne Da Arc) were close, apparently. some Japanese artists have died these past years. four's a lot for me. yes, i am a big fan of Japanese music. i'm sure you've figured it out by now.
i've been watching gothic&lolita specials as well. i want to go to Japan and get those dresses!
i love Kami. and MANA-sama.
i will watch bel air de l'image . one day... and also Bara no Konrei.
i had a striking headache yesterday. whenever i stepped out into the sunlight, i would get a migrain. when night came, it disappeared. i think it has something to do with my eyes.
i have a bad cold today. it really hurts. Kim has one too. it's probably because of the weather...
read sim's xanga update. that really sucks. kaplastikan... kill them, sims. i know you can. can't believe there is actually a person who could do that to YOU. they should know better. Remember Kimko and them? Kat2 and Meg2? haha.
if someone finds mr. AC dead because of strichnine, that would be because of Celine Bautista and me. Just a warning. of course, that would be if we get there first. baka maunahan kami. haha! even Mr. B knows.
do you know how strichnine kills? it is so painful... a very good torture mechanism. even the smallest drop will kill you. the smaller the amount, the slower and more painful your death. it is tasteless, so is often mixed in food or drink. like arsenic, it is not very easily detected in the blood. strichnine is a chemical found in rat poisoning, i think and is something like arsenic, only worse. when swallowed, it mixes with your blood and poisons it, so poisoning everything else in the process. it also attacks your nervous system, so when the person is dying, he is usually curled up as a fetus in pain. women from the 1700s to 1800s used strichnine and arsenic to kill.
i would use it to kill someone i absolutely hated... and you know, i would probably enjoy the screams of pain and agony coming from him. yes... i think i would... so i'm a sadist sometimes. so what?
hey sims, you want some strichnine? ^^
i got a 7 (26/30) in the Oral Presentation yesterday! wonderful! it was Victor and I who got a 7. wonderful.
i'm attending the MUNA (Mock United Nations Assembly) tomorrow. it's from 7:30 to 5:00 Saturday and Sunday. i will be so tired. oh well.
then there's the HALE concert! yeah!
we already asked sir Calado if we could do the Prom next year. he allowed us, and it will be CAS hours. great! hit two birds in one stone! theme: Mafia/50's/Rat Pack-ish. Something Classy... and in a nice venue as well. not like this year's 70's retarded crap in the NBC tent at the Fort. Eww. who holds the JS Prom in a TENT?! good Lord! so you know what the Seniors are planning to do? we are going to attend the first half, dance around a bit then ditch the prom for the EuroCarnival. So much fun. next year, we should have it at the Shangri-La or somewhere nice and classy. yeah. why is it in the NBC tent anyway?? oh yeah! Trying to be cool and miserably failing at it. sir Calado is giving them fireworks pa. Baby niya kasi... yayaman kasi nila. they bought the cheering competition. we all had a budget of 19K pesos. how much did they spend? 84K pesos. What is the use of a budget if you're not even going to follow it, i wonder. stupid juniors. they can all go to hell. except for the nice ones. too bad they're stuck with the lamest batch ever. haha. yeah, i'm still pissed.
we're waiting for Sir Mel to come for Math class. i didn't want to go to school but if i didn't, then i wouldn't be allowed to go to Sofia's party either. grr. i want to escape TOK class too... i'll get a MAJOR headache after it. i can't think today!
i need water! where's Luke?! haha
i ran tinto Ji Yong Kim and Sung Hoon Oh yesterday. Ji Yong delayed! Sung Hoon still doesn't have a date for his PASS! i hope they get to do their defence soon. i really want them to pass!
they're having Personnel Day in the Gym. I can hear Sige by 6Cycle Mind playing. they're excluding us from everything! it's so annoying!
i had a nice talk with Poch two days ago. it's nice being able to talk to him. i'm glad he's on my side.
my head is starting to hurt again.
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right now, we are doing teacher-bashing. particularly our chem and our dep. principal. Ms. Marj is so nice. as well as Mr. B. good thing we have them.
a while ago, Mr. Calado was telling off the Upper School about their behavior and their attire. i was wondering why, and it turns out it's because we have to be plastic next week. haha. the WASC people are coming! Plastic time.

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Kami

Kanae wrote alone 木曜日, 2月 16, 2006

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水曜日, 2月 15, 2006

私のBlogへいらっしゃいまして。
このBlogはLolita Lounge です。又、いらっしゃいまして。
私はあなたのBlog Author, 香苗。はじめまして、よろしくございました。
さあ。このBlogは新しいね?ここに、全ては私の本当の気持ち、私の思う、私の言葉。私の語は：フィリピン語と英語と日本語。日本語はまだ勉強います。でも、私の語はいつもエレガント。いつもエレガントに。
私は十五歳と今、私はPhilippinesに。私はEGLです。
さあ、はじめよ、ね?
今に、私はDir en greyのThe Finalを聞こえます。きれいと悲しいな歌。
ハイ、マナ様をとっても好きです。彼はすごいですね? Malice Mizerを好きです、そしてMoi Dix Moisを好きです。
今、こお歌はGacktのエム～For My Dear～。Gacktを好きです、でももっとMalice Mizerに。
昨日はValentinesの日々、ね?本当に、Valentinesの日々を好きないです。私のValentinesはいつも寂しいと楽しじゃないです。昨年、私のValentinesは悲しい；今年は同じ。時々、私は一人じゃないを願う、でも。。。知らない。私はまだ一人ね?時々Valentinesは痛い、だけど私はいつもあの痛みを隠す。私の痛みを誰が見る欲しいじゃない。
今日に。。。
今日は面白い意じゃないです。明香さんを助けました、中国語組へ行きました。SM BICUTAN 行きましたそしてWigを買う増した。あれだけ。MUNAへ行きたい!USTへ行きたい!
お休みなさい、皆様。ここに行きました、ありがとう。
じゃ又ね、
香苗
P.S.　EncodingはUnicode（UTF-8、思ってます)に見てます下さい。ありがとう。

Welcome to my blog.
This blog is the Lolita Lounge. Again, welcome.
I am your Blog Author, Kanae. It is a pleasure to meet all of you.
So, this blog is new, isn't it? Here, everything is my true feelings, my thoughts, my words. My languages are: Filipino, English and Japanese. I am still studying Japanese, so excuse me if I am wrong. But my language is always elegant. Always elegant.
I am fifteen years old, and I am in the Philippines right now.
So, let's begin, shall we?
Now i am listening to Dir en grey's The Final. Such a beatifully sad song.
Yes, I like Mana a lot. He's amazing, isn't he? I like Malice Mizer, and Moi Dix Mois.
Now I am listening to Gackt's Emu~For My Dear~. I like Gackt, but i like him better with Malice Mizer.
Yesterday was Valentine's Day, right? In truth, i don't like Valentine's Day. My Valentine's is always lonely and not fun. Last year, my Valentine's Day was sad; this year was the same. Sometimes i wish i wasn't alone but... i don't know. I'm still alone, huh? Sometimes Valentines hurts, but i always hide that pain. I don't want others to see my pain.
Today...
Today was not interesting. I helped Asuka, went to Chinese class. I went to SM Bicutan and bought a wig. I want to go to the MUNA! I want to go to UST!
Good night everyone. For coming here, thank you.

love,
Kanae.

P.S. Please view encoding in Unicode (UTF-8, i think.) Thank you.

Kanae wrote alone 水曜日, 2月 15, 2006

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