in the midst of my solitude

金曜日, 1月 05, 2007

im almost done designing my prom dress. i slept at 5am because of it. and i wasnt even sleepy yet... o_O i have no idea why.
so yes, vampiric princess madame aristocrat style. wahaha! i wish i had a BJD already... id bring Kirill to the prom dressed as an Ouji-sama.
Khal agreed to be my prom date; now i have to design a suit for him that matches my dress. i might use the same dress for Vanitea, only with a different skirt.
the Japanese Embassy hasn't replied yet. lakarin ko nalang kaya para masmadali, ano? -.- *sigh*
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i had a black dream last night.
if i die anytime soon, i want the following people (apart from parents and relatives) to attend my funeral. (not in order of importance)
1. Patrisha Delgado
2. Mykhos Robeniol
3. Khallaene Enriquez
4. Christian Domingo
5. JC Domingo
6. Eula Rodriguez
7. Abigail Lopez
8. Joan Castaneda
9. Celine Bautista
10. Kuya Lyron
11. Ate Catherine
12. Ate Inezia
13. Kuya Ervin
14. WTF Cosplayers
15. CosplayKada friends
16. Fuminori Iwahashi.

ha, and i want to be buried in a costume. a morbid one. or a gothic aristocrat or my favorite gothic lolita outfit. and Pat to do my burial makeup. and i want Kirill to be buried with me. or I'll give him to Pat for her to take care of. she'll adopt him nalang.
maybe that's why i was afraid to adopt Justine.
yes, thinking random, morbid thoughts but it's been bothering me. maybe it's time again? im only 16... well, 17 in three months. but they predicted i'd die at the age of 18. maybe i will... maybe i won't. i don't know.
i still have to find a real Levi Inochiyama. lol. i won't rest till i find him.
and yes, i would like for him to come to my funeral. the last time, Fumi. then i can say goodbye peacefully.

from prom to funeral.
how my thoughts rearrange themselves...

Kanae

Kanae wrote alone 金曜日, 1月 05, 2007

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